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Leaving
03:54
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Pull the fire alarm
As everything evacuated from my lungs
Well i’ve been angry, I’ve been messed up, I’ve been thinking back
To all the different ways you react
To me badly
Cause you have me
Cause I’m easy
Fill my mind with
With the static
When you have me
I can’t think, I can’t breathe
Cause you have me, you have me
I’ve been wasting my time
But since I left you’re like the only thing on my mind
I always burn and break everything that is mine
As long as I remember that leaving was right
The swelling hasn’t moved or gone down at all
But I learned not to pressure you to talk or call
I let the ship sink but there’s something sickening
To see him circling the ocean floor
And you have me, you have me
I’ve been wasting my time
But since I left you’re like the only thing on my mind
I always burn and break everything that is mine
As long as I remember that leaving was right
Leaving was right
And how do I be real
With anybody after you ?
(leaving was right)
How do I ask if there is more to life
Than tv shows and shit food
(leaving was right)
I’ve been alone for months
And my friends keep telling me
I will grow to like it on my own
(leaving was right)
I’m just hating every second spent unoccupied
Wishing that I could have kept the love alive,
(well leaving was right)
And now i'm staring as the stars go by
My head is burning with the thought of you and someone else getting high
While i'm just getting by, you’re getting high while im just getting by
You have me, you have me
I’ve been wasting my time
But since I left you’re like the only thing on my mind
I always burn and break everything that is mine
As long as I remember that leaving was right
Well did you ever even care at all ?
(Leaving was right)
Was he just in the back of your mind while we were passing the time ?
I let the ship sink but there’s something sickening about him circling the ocean floor
(Leaving was right)
Leaving was right
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I guess i went a little crazy when we finished school
but i cannot remember all the words i said to you before i flew the coop
I’ve been triangulating to find myself manipulating the trust you put in me
To not pack up and leave
I need to get this off my chest
2-3-4
Drunk in the dark on north road
I never should have weaponised when i felt low
I don’t blame you for telling me to go
I’ll walk home alone, alone
You were gone inside
I was only there to pass the time
Those chemically made eyes they trap me in this lie
Self sabotaging choices made, where all my thoughts end up this late
You should go home, oh just go home
I need to get this off my chest
Drunk in the dark on north road
I never should have weaponised when i felt low
I don’t blame you for telling me to go
I’ll walk home alone, alone
The kiss, by the waterfall
I thought I learned to love but not at all
Darcy we’ve been over this,
The person that you think that I am just does not exist
I know you’re wishing that things would change
(or that things could change)
Bury your head, just act your fucking age
Drunk in the dark on north road
Drunk in the dark on north road
I never should have weaponised when i felt low
I don’t blame you for telling me to go
I’ll walk home alone, alone
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Dissociate
03:19
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I don’t know who i am lately
All of my thoughts they keep escaping me
Memories feel like i'm not there
Like a split to a fracture it keeps on getting worse
This isn’t who thought i'd be at 23
Frustrated that i'm tired but i just can’t sleep
These wheels are moving independently
Head first towards the trees
So pump the brakes just pump the brakes
Cause i'm losing everything that i am
Dissociate i’ll dissociate
The person who once kept these thoughts at bay has gone away
The streets have changed the dawn will soon bring day for you
But i'm split in the shade
Watch as i dissociate
I try to push away the thoughts I have of you but i’ll find
These coping strategies and knots will all start to unwind
When i'm alone at night
A thick fog it sets in my mind
Was I a coward and a liar ?
Was I the petrol to the fire ?
So fan the flames just fan the flames
Cause i'm losing everything that I am
Dissociate i’ll dissociate
The person who once kept these thoughts at bay has gone away
The streets have changed the dawn will soon bring day for you
But i'm split in the shade
Watch as i dissociate
If i remember how to breathe in
I hope that i won’t breathe in you
If i remember how to breathe in
I hope that i’ll re-associate
Dissociate, dissociate
Till every thought i have has gone away
Like drifting into outer space
Yeah I’ll admit you left a hole and that im winded from the fall
I will try to breathe in if i can remember how
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Reservoir
04:05
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You can keep me in a sketch you drew when we were 18
But I can’t keep you anywhere at all i’ll just run right back again
I could never stay awake until the hours that you could
(said I never would)
Now you’re not here and i’m not there I can’t sleep anyway
So I will drive, those two little hours to our flat in Reservoir
And I will lie to my friends, tell them you’re not in my head anymore
I will drive, those two little hours to our flat in Reservoir
And I will lie to myself, yelling you’re not in my head anymore
Till i’m blue in the face, you’re not in my head anymore
Every damn day, you’re not in my head anymore
Well the stupid things they all crept in I even played their games
The empty friends and careless ways you said to cast astray
Just to see your face again i’d throw them all away
(I’ll be strong) I’ll admit, that i'm wrong
If you say it’s not too little too late
For us to talk, between the white walls and fluorescent light
Did you know, you were right ?
So I will drive, those two little hours to our flat in Reservoir
And I will lie to my friends, tell them you’re not in my head anymore
I’ll do anything to take it back, dying over and over again
First time you told me that you loved me in the pitch black
Your laugh when my bones crack
white dress falling to the floor, leave my soul intact
I know it doesn’t make it sense right now
You left a home and all the love we found
Northern suburbs full of memories
We can’t go back, just forget about me
Call me out, stare me down
It can’t be worse than running my head to the ground
Thought it was you, was always me was I right or was I so wrong to leave
Forgetting you was like pulling teeth was I right or was I so wrong to leave
Thought it was you, was always me, was I right or was I so wrong to leave
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Darcy Baker Melbourne, Australia
Sad songs, for now
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